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What a great way to end October! I was finally feeling better after I was sick a couple of weeks ago so they had me go in for my Chemo last week. Other than being really bored and tired while sitting in the Chemo chair, I actually am feeling pretty good compared to some of the other times I went in for Chemo. It was a long week, but I had no real problems; which is great! On Friday I had to go into the Dr to have the pump that they have me wear all week taken off and it was such a great feeling to just be done with it and knowing in 2 weeks I dont have to go back and do it again. I am hoping that was the last of it for the rest of my long life that I have ahead of me to live. Nothing about Chemo is easy. It really wears you down and there are times I have no energy to even hold a conversation. I lost contact with a lot of my loved ones and friends during the last 6 months, because it is really draining. I used to text a lot and do the whole facebook thing, but I couldnt manage to move to log on or touch the iphone to talk to someone. I am looking forward to the point where I can actually get back to healing and back to my normal cheerful self.

I decided this week it is time to put the Chemo behind me and get on with my life. I picked up a book last night and started reading (which I havent done for SO long) and I have been writing letters to friends (the old fashioned way!). I also started going into the office and plan to be here everyday as much as I can. I want to push myself, but there may be days that I just cant get out of bed to do it and that is ok and I have to accept that. The Dr said it could be quite awhile before the Chemo brain goes away and I am back to my old self. I kind of feel like I am on the job for the first time and I dont know where to start. So I decided to organize and start reviewing things before I get back on the phones and talking to my lovely clients! I am blessed to have a great job and supportive team at work and family to get through this rough time.

I learned the other day that my long time best friend is coming to visit for my Birthday next week and is staying for 2 whole weeks!!! I am really lonely without my friends here in Texas and am so happy a friend is coming to see me with everything I have been going through. I am looking forward to getting out and seeing Texas and showing her a good time. Great way to celebrate my 26th Birthday as well as completing the Chemo sessions!

In about 2 weeks I go in for a CT test and then a MUGA test (which looks at the heart). THey want to check on the heart to make sure the Chemo didnt damage it too much and then of course the CT is to confirm that I am hopefully still Cancer Free. I find out the results on the 18th so I will definitely write a blog updating everyone on their findings. Very nervous about this. Id almost rather do Chemo the rest of my life than have to sit and wait for these test results. They could come up with anything and in a moment change my whole life for the good or not and these tests will be on going for the rest of my life. Really hard. I dont like suprises so basically I am bad at waiting for the results!

Well I better get back to work and learn something for the day. Remember life is full of suprises, some good and some bad. Get out there and live your life to the fullest and dont stress over the small stuff, because life should be full of happiness. I am working on getting to the point I can do all of that! Take care and thank you all again for your well wishes I greatly appreciate it. I truely believe that your kind words and prayers have helped me get through this horrible time period in my life. Thanks again!

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